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I'm off on holiday for two weeks, down to the south of England with a few days in Disneyland Paris. And you know what the great thing is? The channel tunnel train taking us to France goes all the way to Disneyland! Which means I don't have to stop in Paris! Whoo-hoo! The traffic there is nuts, and red lights are only advisory. I lost count of the amount of times I nearly got knocked down there because the drivers dont care about people.
On a random note, I had my mp3 player on random today and and the March of the Siamese Children came on from the King and I. It made me laugh because for a long time now I've amused myself with the idea that Jan has left a score of little Jan's all across Europe; he was more of a modern man in that sense, no courtship, just seduction, hump em and dump em. So yeah when the big booming notes come in that repesent the Crown Prince that was like Max and then Dmitri's the little one who runs in late at the end, skids on his knees and grins up through his fingers.
I'm an eejit really.
On an even randomer note, I keep referring to the whole prequel thing as Jan's Boys. Not exactly a working title but it will do, I suck at titles
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She couldn't bear to do it, not with him looking so happy, not with him staring at her so expectantly, foolishly believing that she could love him like he wanted. His eyes were so heartbreakingly full of hope that she couldn’t even look at him. She stared down at her shoes instead, and pulled her hand away from his own.
"Dmitri," she shook her head and sighed, "you know there's no future for us. You've always known that. How could you possibly think there was one?"
He was crestfallen, "Because I love you, Raiha. Isn't that enough? I love you and nothing will ever change that. I know we said this was just for fun but it’s become so much more than simply fun for me; it makes me really happy. You make me happy and I am willing to spend every minute of every day making sure you are just as happy as I am.”
Raiha tried to make him see reason, “You know why this wouldn’t work. My career is really beginning to blossom and I can’t start taking time out to get married and raise a family. I have to work twice as hard to get half the respect of a man and I have put so much effort into my work already. I’m finally being given my big chance.”
“You don’t have to take time out,” he tried to reach out and stroke her cheek but she turned her head away from him, “I’m not asking you to give up your career for me. I just want us to be together.”
“But we can’t be together,” she told him, “you’re not even from this country. You have a home somewhere else and I cannot follow you back there. And considering how you lead your life…I mean, look at you. Look at what you are! How can someone like you possibly want the domesticated life?”
Dmitri set his jaw almost angrily, “my brother and his wife manage just fine!”
“Only because they love each other so much,” she could feel the tears in her eyes, knowing she was about to break his heart, “and I don’t think I can ever love you like that. I won't ever love you like that.”
All the blood drained from his face. He started shaking, feeling like someone had just reached into his chest and squeezed his heart until it burst. He shook his head, unable to accept what she said and Raiha didn’t lift one hand to try and comfort him, it would only make his pain worse.
“You don’t love me,” he said eventually, his eyes darting from side to side as he tried to come to terms with the terrible news, “you don’t love me. I… don’t know what to say to that.” He stared at his hands and then looked up to the sky while he tried to restrain his heartbroken tears. He opened his mouth to speak. Shut it again. And then he blurted out, “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do now. What is it I’m supposed to say?”
She told him solemnly, “You’re supposed to say goodbye, Dmitri.”
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I have tortured this character enough methinks. So if you want to see something happy for him, let me know and even give an idea as to what that could be. I'm too cruel
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