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Happy 5th Anniversary

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 9, 2012, 1:33 PM
  • Listening to: Ode to Joy- Beethoven
  • Watching: Amadeus
  • Eating: Nandos chicken
  • Drinking: Irn Bru



October 9th, 2007-2012

Five years ago I met a man who saved my life.

Just because he never actually existed, and was only ever in my head, doesn't mean he didn't matter. I was depressed. I wanted to die. I couldn't look at photographs of myself or look myself properly in the mirror. I had to hide what I was feeling because my pain hurt others.

When he came into my life, he was a man without a reflection, a man who could not be photographed. Without this self-recognition he could not see the sins upon his face. He was entire unto himself; he knew who he was without the need to see who he was.

Dmitri appeared on the 9th of October 2007 around 8:30pm while I was out buying chocolate. My family went on holiday without me, but rather than do coursework I did anything possible that avoided being alone with me.

Dmitri walked into my brain, and died. I was so shocked I replayed it, again and again. An entrance and an exit. He was there and then he was dust. It was unfair that he should disappear without revealing his mystery.

Because I kept thinking about him, and what his story could be, I started focusing on him rather than what I was feeling. I created his fictional family, I thought up a plotline that covers 5 novels, over 100 years and an entire continent. That particular series is on the back burner for now, but if I hadn't focused on writing then I might not be here today.

Now? Now I'm losing weight, I've gained a masters, I've got a new job and I have a much more positive outlook on my life and where it is going. The Julia book is two thirds of the way done so I'm on my way to being a proper writer. All because of the man up above.

Happy 5th anniversary to me and Dmitri Vasile. Looking back… I still can't believe I'm here.

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fishter911 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello!~
You had requested that I leave a link to my literature so here it is!
I hope you enjoy them~ :D
Some are a bit odd but I have been trying to improve. ^^;
Anyway, here you go! (This is only my prose) fishter911.deviantart.com/gall…
There is also poetry as well if you wish to see! :D

I hope you have a great day and please keep up your amazing literature!~ :love: :heart:
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jamberry-song Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Professional General Artist
sta.sh/01gbz0aapah2 I finally drew her in a way that I like! I hope you like her, too; I hope to color her this weekend. :3

Missing you. :heart:
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Cszemis Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Student Writer
Oh hunny I miss you so much too! I hope you're doing well!

When I click on the link it's taking me to the saint just pic? I'm sorry! :(
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jamberry-song Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Professional General Artist
Oh, no! That's not what it's supposed to show! XD Hmm... I'll have to see if I can get it to work later. (On phone right now...) Anyway, I hope you are well, dear!
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Cszemis Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Student Writer
I'm well hunny! Miss you loads!!
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SpearHawk Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013
Where are you? Are you ok? Just busy?
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Cszemis Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Student Writer
Aww I'm sorry hunny! I forgot to tell you I'm in London until Wednesday! So sorry sweetie. Adore you !!! xxx
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SpearHawk Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2013
Oh, ok. Have fun! :D
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SelahDeNoctiluca Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hiya! 

Don't know if you remember me, but we used to talk in the WriteRoom (still makes me depressed that you don't come in there anymore). My username used to be Callie-Higarashi. 

Thought I'd say hi. :) Hope you're doing well.
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jamberry-song Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2013  Professional General Artist
Sorry about that, dear. :( I lost the internet for a bit!

:huggle:
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